i know that i fking hate myself.
i don't deny it.





and leaving people who are hurting isn't exactly the most godly thing to do.
maybe people should be real.
and not fake.
and maybe people should sit down and talk to a person when they have shit with them.

and maybe. just maybe.
people need to realize that maybe their fake apologies and their fake smiles have won over other peoples forgiveness.
but im not as stupid as most people.
and i'm also not a ignorant.
i see straight through how fake everyone is.



so if you wanna fking say something to me.

fking say it.
dont be a bz to me when i honestly try to be nice.


thats when i decide to be a bitch.



















you might think the words im sorry count as an apology.


in my eyes thats bull.
they don't.

so im still waiting for an apology.
i mean in person.
sit me down.
tears in your eyes saying what you did and why your sorry you did it.

until then be a jerk.
and ill be a bitch.